#eulogy1

If only I had known what I know now yesterday

Maybe tomorrow

Or even today

Would be my last

What would I say

Where would I go

Who would I hang out with

What would I eat

Who would I call

Most of all

What would I write

As I lie here

I’m left with lots of questions

And absolutely zero answers

Contemplating the idea of dying

✍🏾

Don’t dm me

Text me

Call me

Don’t bother to ask me anything

Unless

Like Grandpa used to say

You plan on contributing

This not a suicide note

But rather a note to self

A reminder of how quickly you can forget what it means to exist

Those moments filled with bliss

As you exited your mothers womb

Greeted by excited smiles

Unconditional hugs

Genuine kisses

A seemingly ancient existence

Letting go of figuring out my future

Pondering my past

Passively allowing serendipity decide my fate

Painstakingly piecing together a peculiar puzzle

Pausing to discover the hidden path

Accepting the gift of a precious present

Presently comfortable in my own presence

Embracing figments of an unimaginable essence

✍🏾

Contemplating the idea of living

With absolutely zero questions

And lots of answers

Lying here

Writing about the thought of dying

Calling no one

Eating trail mix

Hanging out with an iPhone and my favorite Beatstrumentals

Going to my own funeral

Saying an emphatic eulogy

It is my last

Today is all I’ve got

There is no maybe tomorrow

If only I had known what I know now yesterday

🤦🏾‍♂️

By Aaron J. Yancey

© 2019

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  1. Maybe what you know now or have learned that you didn’t know yesterday could be to help you through your today or tomorrow life??? Just food for the thought.

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    • Thanks big bro! The main thing I’ve learned is to live in the moment and always be content. Most of the stuff I usually worry about related to tomorrow robs me from enjoying today and appreciating yesterday. I wrote this poem after seeing someone around my age die from a stroke 🤦🏾‍♂️🤦🏾‍♂️🤦🏾‍♂️. I was like damn…I’ve gotta start seriously appreciating life more…the gift of the precious present. I’m coming to a place where I don’t fear death anymore.

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